Throughout life, it has been difficult to accept feedback from others. During my early years, my parents and educational staff gave feedback and orders. It was hard to process and implement their expectations. Over time, I had to learn my role in my current situation. I came to understand that there are consequences to not complying with directives given to me.

It is not that I do not want to do things that I am told to do. Sometimes, I know I am wrong. I must be the responsible one and do what is right. There were times when things were not right. I have been better at self-advocacy when it became necessary. But there are times when I have needed the feedback and directives that needed to be had. Initially, it was hard to accept the hard truths told to me. Still, I eventually understand the reason behind these truths. Life involves being told what to do. That is just part of the process of living.

It can be hard to realize that there have been times when I felt intimidated or pressured. This happened when I was approached by people of authority on various topics. I have acted inappropriately towards them and others. I went through many rough experiences. I saw that those who value me were shocked. They see me as an amazing person with potential. I needed to learn to change my ways. I became willing to understand the ways of life and others’ perspectives.

Many things have changed over the past few years. This includes those who oversee the processes I must go through. In the past, more latitude was given for various reasons. That can no longer be the case. People now see that I have the potential to carry myself well. When I am approached about trivial matters, they believe these can be tackled with my known capabilities. Additionally, people now understand more clearly that failing to meet expectations and directives can lead to very grave consequences. These consequences can greatly impact my ability to do what I need to stay well.

At times, understanding the necessity of accepting feedback, directives, and expectations can be a challenge. Nevertheless, the reality is that this is the way of the world. It can’t simply exist without some order in the way that people co-mingle and exist. I understand that I must take responsibility. I need to make things right when they are not as they should be. It is also up to me to know that I can do what is expected of me. I must still lead by example by staying cordial and civil. Even as I struggle, I know there are appropriate times and places. I can vent my frustration in a proper and healthy way.

For far too long, the world has been catering to my needs and challenges. Times change, and I must learn to accept that I am no different. I must lead by example and show those who look up to me that I can meet the world’s expectations. I also need to show that the other human beings can too. It’s about being the person that is expected to be.