For many years, I neglected my mental health needs. I did not want to do what was necessary. I refused to admit what I was doing wrong. I also did not want to acknowledge that I needed to ask for help. In its worst times, it got really bad that others knew that I just wasn’t right. Even though I knew what I was doing wasn’t right or normal, I realized I had to admit it. I started to see past the beliefs I had created. I understood what I needed to do. I understood why I needed to do it.

For most of the time I was living on my own, I was mentally unstable in one fashion or another. Even if I couldn’t recognize it, others knew and as much as they wanted to try I just wouldn’t listen. I was either afraid of doing what I needed to do because of the way I was feeling. Or I did not like how I initially felt. I wasn’t being patient and didn’t give myself grace and understanding. I needed to understand that things wouldn’t automatically go back to normal. Finally, I understood it. I realized that I had to consistently get back on track. Only then did I understand that things would get better for me.

I couldn’t grasp that it took being consistent even though I had seen this being portrayed on TV. There was no worry that things would go bad like I wanted to allow myself to believe. They have been proven to work for decades. I also realized I must understand the side effects. If I didn’t like some aspects, it was up to me to be better. I needed to be more aware of what to do to combat those issues. I learned something about being proactive. I had to be medicated and mentally stable to make those things happen clearly.

I had to let go of what I felt was morally wrong with me. I wanted to be more Christian-like in 2026. This required carrying my word of 2025, Honesty, into 2026. Even though the years have changed, dishonesty was a sin. It was something I had been doing for a long time. It was a practice I no longer wanted to continue in 2026. I aimed to start the year off on a fresh slate.

It is often said that if you want to do something you have to want to do it. It also takes understanding the reasons why you have to do it. In my situation, it involves grasping the benefits that come with it. For many years, I convinced myself not to care for my mental health. I had to recognize the benefits. I also needed the wish to work on losing weight. I also had to realize that it takes small steps to make things become the habits you want. It requires small amounts of things too. That was how I approached it going into 2026. I did what was right at a pace acceptable for me.

I didn’t always want to admit when things weren’t right with me. Even though I knew I wasn’t normal, I didn’t understand that things needed to be my own normal. I had to feel the way that was best for me instead of masking and hiding my true feelings. I eventually realized that doing the right things was necessary. I wanted to feel better and was tired of playing the same old tricks again and again.