For the past several years, I have believed certain things about things that my mental health medications had caused. After many years of making very destructive decisions, I learned the value of my mental health medications. It is crucial for me to take them as prescribed every day. Doing so breaks away all the myths I wanted to believe they prevented me from doing.

I had done some pretty hard things over the years. This happened when I was not taking my medications. These were things I was not supposed to be doing, nor was I proud of them. Many people had seen me crash and burn at some point or another and even raised concerns. For most of that time, I was unwilling to believe them or understand how much I was flirting with disaster.

Indeed there were some pretty close moments and thankfully, I saved myself from entering the hospital or being in jail. Now knowing, seeing, and understanding the reality and consequences feels really scary to me. I now realize that those things I once believed no longer hold any weight. This is especially true compared to the life I have seen once I turned myself around.

All what I had believed was untrue and I can do all the things that I believe that I couldn’t. Yes, the medicines have awful side effects. Nevertheless, that is just the reality. Deep down, I know it is up to me to make the best decisions. I must work around the moments that make me fall into having those issues arise. In the end, that is more valuable. It is greater than how I felt when I was not doing the things that I needed to do.

I thought I was missing out on things by taking my medication. The reality was it was the other way around. I was missing out on things because my routine was not in order when I was not taking my medication. I was often around many who knew when I was not myself. I realized in the end it was the same result by not taking the medication as prescribed. The same things would happen.

There was the reality that there were only so many chances to keep doing something. Eventually, the consequences I did not want would occur. It would be too late to reconcile my mistakes. I would not have the credibility I keep when taking care of my mental health. It is crucial to keep the reputation that I need to uphold.

Deep down, I have let go of one belief. I used to think that not obeying treatment orders would lead to success. I had seen time and time again that was not the case. What I had been trying to do had the same effect with the medication as it did without it. I learned that it was better to just do what I needed to do. As a result, things would be better for all involved.