In gaining my skills to regroup for the next chapter in my life, I have made the decision to do a blog series on Adulting. The first installment I have chosen to write about is going to bed.
Going to Bed. It’s quite simple, really? Turn off all the lights, turn down the covers and doze off. Yes, there is insomnia. The autism community is known for autistics having issues with sleep and in great numbers. But imagine, if all your life you had someone tell you or get things ready for bed like locking the doors, turning off the lights and so forth, then the very next day you don’t have someone do that. You would have to decide when you would get ready to retire.
For me, this should’ve been easy,because for 21 years now, I have had medication prescribed to me that is specifically intended for individuals on the spectrum to settle down their irritability and impulses. Almost two years ago I moved out of my parents house and on my own. One night I didn’t take my medicine.and had a !marathon all nighter at the computer. The next thing I knew it was time to start the day all over again.
I have written many times about not taking my medicine and the several issues in the past year and a half it has caused me , my family and numerous other people. I will save that for another post. what drew me to the attention of the need for sleep was the need of a fellow autism mom’s blog, where she she stresses the need of having routines for her adult children. She stated if there was no schedule for them (autistics thrive on routines,) they would not go to bed.It may seem unusual for them to not have that freedom, but dancing around with this issue for 17 months and seeing that post hit home for me.
It might have been that I was 2 days of not.taking that pill and I had to do something with my parents that none of us wanted to do. That same day, I took to heart that another autism mom posted on social media that her son recognized the.need to get away from stressful or overwhelming issues and sit down and do whatever we need to do to make ourselves calm and diffuse the situation at hand. It’s that simple. However, what we were doing the other day was.stressful and it continued to irritate me, I became obsessed and I said things to my parents that were very hurtful, and in all actuality this task was to my benefit. This brings of both points that each of the mom’s brought up this weekend, the need for one’s space and the need for sleep.
Nonetheless,.its.important. One needs to unwind before turning in for the night to slowly drain or put at ease those thoughts in their brain. Music does help as does m many other things, but most of all the pill is necessary and I need to remember that I need to take my medicine on a.balanced schedule. As for schedules, I am in the process of getting a new schedule set up for.myself in the future as.I will be starting my.chapter of my life.