There are times when things happen that can upset us. Our brains can be wired to think differently. This can cause us to become obsessed. We overthink things greatly. This overthinking can make us quite emotional about things. Sometimes it can be over some of the silliest things or an issue that was already solved. Because of the way our brain is set up, it can make us feel hurt and worry about things. It can be hard to let things go because we often only see how hurt we are. We feel like we need to be the one to fix something. Yet, we don’t always have that power.

I have often seen things as issues I needed to worry about. I let them affect me so much that they caused me to have a meltdown. Sometimes, I reacted at others for no reason. I did not realize that things were indeed in control. I needed to be patient and let the process work itself out. I have challenges letting thoughts and feelings go about others. I felt they did me injustice when they were doing their best. I wanted them to feel my hurt and anxiety. I know that is not a healthy thing to do. It only makes things worse.

In reality living with the challenges that I do can be difficult. There is always the possibility of being triggered. This occurs when the one thing expected to go to plan does not happen. It can be nothing but a technical error. Yet, my brain often overthinks and makes others feel bad for something they have no control over. Because they are in the firing path, they become the target. It can take some time to let go of those hard feelings I am experiencing. Residual effects of the past make it difficult to see that I am indeed safe and my needs are met.

I have so much potential, and many people see me as an amazing person. Still, it’s hard to imagine that I too have my moments. Sometimes, I want to act immature at others for some reason or another. But more and more in life, I think of all those people that think nothing but great things of me. That warms my heart. It gives me the drive to stay composed and finish tasks calmly. I try not to react to others or exaggerate situations. This is because my brain wants to sense danger, although it is unlikely to occur.

I often think about the good times. There is so much to be thankful for. I realize there’s no sense in making a big deal out of petty things. Sometimes, our brains are built to overthink. We get defensive about trivial things in life. This causes us concern and worry. In reality, the things our brain thinks would never happen. We have to remind ourselves to see the real truth, not what our brain allows us to think.