It can be hard when doing what you need to do to be well. Doing things that are essential to your mental health can seem unfair. They can also make you feel like crap. You feel tempted to neglect what you need to do for self-care. Resist that urge. It is important to give things like medicine to work themselves out and get balanced in your system. It seem unfair that life is treating you the way it is. Be patient, as it will get better later on.

There have been many times when I was not taking care of myself. I had to get back on track or do something to get to a place where I survive. It was a lot of being all over the place and I was just surviving. I would take steps to get back on track. Nevertheless, I would not stick with it. The first feelings were too horrible. I would often go back to where I know I shouldn’t have gone. I was continuing to hurt myself in the process.

Eventually, things became a reality. The dangers began to set in. I realized there were real potentials. These potentials are even more dangerous than what the meds do to help me. There were harsh realities that I know deep down I did not want to experience. The loss of things that were important to me like a job, home, cell phone. I realized I was causing hurt to many who cared for me. I had to get things together and do the right thing once and for all.

For a very long time, I was so all over the place. No one even knew who I was. They didn’t understand what my true mental state was. Sometimes you have to recognize the dangers of neglecting mental health. Not taking care of myself can affect the people who care about me. Seeing and hearing the hard truth can hurt sometimes. Yet, looking back on those hard days can be just as tough.

It also took realizing that I did not have as many savable chances as I once did. That there was no way that I would manage to blame something because of this or that. That I had to grow up once and be responsible for caring for my mental health once and for all. It would be tough in the beginning. I had to endure and be patient with the process of my medicine kicking in. It was also knowing that consistency was necessary. No matter what I had to do to be consistent, it was both essential and crucial for daily living.

I had to do the hard work and trust the process. I knew there were real dangers if I did not follow through. It was important to follow the necessary mental health regimen that was recommended to me. I had to do the right thing every single day. I needed to ignore what my body wanted to tell me. I also had to dismiss any flawed thought that came up in my mind. In the end, I realized it was better to stick with things. I had to let the meds work in my body to make things better.

For some reason, I have struggled for a very long time. I’ve had difficulty understanding the necessity of taking my medications as prescribed. Finally, the right things landed in my lap. They made me realize it was necessary to do what I had to do. I had to fight through the harder part of the process. It wouldn’t be easy at first. I had to persevere because so many things depended on it. The moment felt incredibly real. I had to be firm and persist, no matter what.