As is often the case in my own anxiety, the common struggle that I face when doing something new or different that requires me to step outside my comfort zone. It can be difficult to take the initiative and do it, but there comes a great sense of relief when I am on my way to where I need to be.

The aforementioned paragraph is the story of my life and while it can be hard to do what is necessary for daily life to work towards improving my quality of life, it is this that can often hold me back in a world where there is often nothing to fear but fear itself. I know that in the end that I will eventually feel better as time progresses and I become comfortable doing what I am doing.

I know that as I am untethering myself more from my primary supports that I need to work at getting out more in the community. I know that to a degree over the past year I have regressed due to the fact that I have had to put my family’s needs above my own on top of not always being able to be my best self when I needed to be. There has also been the parts of myself that was because of my declining mental strength that I had more of a superpower of sorts, yet while anxiety does get in a way that is at times can be unbearable in its complex ways, it is knowing that it is just playing games with my mind, and I do need to step outside of my comfort zone.

 There has been more of an understanding of the power of my mental health medication and the fact that I do need to be more physically active along with the benefits that it can provide while working to combat the side effects that I once disliked but now I fully understand that they for the time being are unavoidable unless I myself do take that initiative and do what is necessary to combat them. While it is a day-by-day thing for me, it is working my best at it while understanding that there is a necessity for mental health medication, always and the responsibility that lies within to combat the side effects.

I also know that there are tools in place to help combat my anxiety that I experience when I face my fears, and it is too on my part to take that initiative and put forth the effort and utilize the necessary tools that are helpful to disengage my anxiety when the fear tries to prevent me from doing things that I know in the end are going to be beneficial to my well-being.

It is indeed taking the chance and doing what is necessary for me to manage my overall well-being and that sometimes requires me to take a step outside the comfort zone. Knowing that it requires taking that first step whether it is down the street or on that bus that things will begin to ease into my own sense of personal comfort and ease me into getting acclimated to doing what I thought all along I couldn’t do but knew deep down I could do.