Life can throw us with many challenges. There can be so many reasons to feel down and out about ourselves. Granted, being autistic is not something that is easy to bear. But for me, I know that it is important to never give up or suffer the consequential actions. Being my best matters every day. It is important to always try to make the best of the things that are presented to me. I must strive to do this, no matter how hard they are.

No, being autistic is something that is not always easy to bear. There can be many obstacles in our path that make things difficult. Sometimes, we have to jump through extra hoops to guarantee we get the things that make us comfortable. I have thrown my own pity party many times. I wanted those that loved me the most to join in. But they often would not and often would remind me to work at being as optimistic as I be. Being willing to see things this way was not always easy. Instead, I always wanted to be brutally honest. I wanted to point out everything that was wrong with my life. I did not think I had the capacity to be brave. I doubted my ability to withstand what I needed to do.

It is hard sometimes, even to this day. Yet, those loved ones still keep pushing me. They push me even when I do not think I can. Even as I have gotten older, I am better at recognizing the need to find the best in situations. I try not to constantly put myself and others down. Out of my own joy and spirit, I wanted them to carry my own misery. It is something that is still a process.

I had to learn something important. It was so much better to find things that brought me joy. This was wiser than wallowing in how horrible my life was. It was taking a toll on those that I loved and so many others because of choosing misery over joy. I learned that I should often focus on the good things in life. It is better than highlighting everything wrong or that brings me misery. This realization has since been shared in daily posts on Facebook and Instagram. These have been much appreciated by many. They show that there is always a good reason to be living. This holds true no matter what is going on in my life.

There can be so much going on in my life at times. I now know that it is best to keep plugging along no matter what. There were times when I was incredibly hard on myself. It was more than anyone ever imagined. But I now understand that is not who I am, nor is it who anyone expects me to be. I continue to see the joy in myself and sometimes others, even as I continue to navigate this life.