I often feel morning anxiety when doing necessary activities like going to the day program or work. I want to make excuses and create fears as to why I can’t do things. Nevertheless, these activities are actually beneficial to me. Deep down I know that it is helpful to me to push through the fear and get ready. I need to do what is needed. But, for reasons related to anxiety and autism, it can be hard sometimes. Even so, I know that doing what I need to do is best.

There can be numerous reasons for my reluctance. I may not want to do what I know is right for me. Sometimes it can stem from not doing what is right for me to care for myself. There can also be the fear that I will actually be able to get up and do what is needed. I can get going in the morning when in fact that has been disproved time and time again. I have started letting go of beliefs that are not true. I know that doing what is right for my mental health is crucial. Going to day services and working keep me well.

I know that it is better to take action than to sit and ruminate. I often lead myself to believe things that are far from true. I also have to be willing to trust others, even when trust was lacking in the past. I need to understand that I am at places like day services to work on my mental health. It’s important to learn how to manage my mental health condition. It is also crucial to navigate the world with a better mindset. Taking care of my mental health and going to day services just makes me feel so much better. If I had seen that more and more instead of having flawed thoughts, it would be so much better.

I must understand this. I have to learn to work well with others, no matter what I want to think. It is hard to do things because I was not caring for myself in the past. I must go to day services. This is part of being well enough to work. It helps take care of my mental wellbeing by providing the support I need. In the past, I thought I did not need day services. I was not in the right mind. I had to understand myself. I also had to recognize from those in charge that going to day services with working is beneficial. It fills the void needed when living on my own.

I am also grateful that I have a place to go. Many in the autistic community do not have this choice. They are unable to go due to expectations or behaviors they experience. I also know that it is important for me to be on my best behavior. I have realized that my past luck will not return. I reacted negatively before. I am given a brush off as I have before. There are expectations to be met. People there expect me to be someone who has not only walked the walk. They look up to me as someone who has also talked the talk. I can achieve what I set my mind to. I am capable of succeeding at what I am determined to do.