Until the start of this calendar year, I did not fully understand the importance of adhering to my medication regimen. I needed to follow it continuously. I never realized that before. Things fell into place. I actually started to do the work that I needed to do. Once I had started just taking the medication and then doing the research on how important it is to my mental wellbeing and finding ways to live my best life, things got better,

I saw that there were others in the same disbelief I was in. Yet, they learned the same thing. Eventually, they were allowed to let go of their behaviors and work towards being well. For as much as believed that something good would happen, it never did. That was one of the things that I had to take to heart.

Another thing was that I was not being honest with those that I needed to be honest with. A few years ago, I got a Mini Gideon’s style Bible. Inside, there is an index that lists verses to look at when experiencing different situations. Through that, I learned that being dishonest was a sin. There were many other ways that I was acting that were wrong. Even though I had come to terms with my sexuality, I had to release other aspects of myself. Doing so was necessary for my well-being. Honesty became my 2025 word. I held myself to that standard. Part of living up to it was being honest with my medication regimen.

I wanted to avoid the reality of needing to take my medications as prescribed. This was because I was not being the person I was when I was not taking them. I felt useless or less than because I was not attracted to what I had thought was the right things. But, I realized I was constantly hurting myself. I needed to be firm and put my foot down. It was important to be honest once and for all.

I eventually knew that I had to let go of the things I was doing. They were self-sabotaging my life, and it was hurting me continuously. Others seen my behavior in the past and I knew that I never wanted to disappoint them anymore. I had to realize that I was hurting myself and only asking for trouble. The medications prescribed to me were done so to help me, not hurt me. I began to let go of the flawed thoughts that I had believed about them. I realized they were not prescribed just because of what I was led to believe years ago. If they had not been prescribed then, the problem would have spiraled to be much worse. It took a lot of effort back then to get me to the cocktail I am on today. It’s truly a blessing that things work as well as they do when adhered to.

Over time, I learned to let go of the old theories I had about the medications I was not taking. I started to make better choices to adhere to them. I also focused on other ways to keep myself well from all dimensions of wellness. Things are much better than they were at the first of the year. They are back to what they need to be once and for all. This is what makes things go so well. They are just as important as the other tools that make me well on all dimensions of being well.