For most of my life I was known as a negative person by many, some could see the positivity. But that was because I could mask it well when I needed to. But when I felt comfortable unleaashing my fury and felt safe with those I could be genuine with, I let the real me out and many times that was my frustrations with the things in my life. Over time, I discovered that life would be better if I looked at the good things and did things that made me feel good.

Many times it takes us as human beings to want to make a change within ourselves. There was times that many thought that I was a complete jerk becuase I was bitter with many or didn’t even want to socialize with them. Eventually I realized that I had to open up a little and part of that in some ways was that my job required me to be more of a compassionate people person by sharing my experince in my line of work by knowing that people with mental health and autism can lead successful lives if they choose to.

But still after being able to communicate to others more openly and freely I at times still felt lost and unheard. I then began the quest for moving out on my own and gaining my independence. While it had is issues, I extended myself outward more and people saw the positive qualities within myself more and more. Eventually I learned that being positive paid itself off more and more.

Granted there were things from time to time to be that made me frustrated. My first apartment that had issues and me eventually having to move back in with my parents at the end of the COVID lockdowns and having to stay with them during the COVID lockdowns as there was many unknowns in the world. After I closed the door on my first apartment, I began pounding the pavement looking to pick myself back up and start the next chapter on my independence. It took those giving me a chance when the world was in a very difficult place the opportunity that I needed to start my independence over. But through all the rough stuff that 2020 brought for me and so many, I was resilence, never gave up and continued to have a positive minset even though there was many cards against me.

Eventually as those years evolved to what this month has been five years of living in my present home independently desptite the many destructive decisions that I made and the flawed thoughts I had about my mental health treatments that I finally discovered were powerful tools in my mental health recovery and autism journey while living through some of the most challenging things that my family has experienced in their lives I began to see that having a positive mindset in addition to being the best that I be every day is a successful recipe for having the life that I desire.

I learned that I would never be happy with my life unless I was happy with myself first and that finding something positive about each day mattered the most and focuising always on the positive made things go so much easier than what things had been for so long in a negative mindset. Positvity always radiates and wins.