As autistic people we often want to find comfort in things. One of the hardest battles for me was understanding how to not let things I couldn’t foresee be fixed quickly. I always had to have the answer for everything. It diluted my need to live in the moment. I just took what was happening in the here and now. I existed before tackling what happen or not happen yet. I had to learn to enjoy what was now instead of catastophizing what would happen or even not happen.

There is so much we can do with time. For most of my life, I have led to be spent worrying about what I was couldn’t control. I spent so much of my time worrying about things I couldn’t control. This meant I couldn’t enjoy the time I had to myself to just sit back and relax. I had to learn to let go of what I couldn’t change or fix. I needed to be ready to roll with the punches. I did not have the ability to predict what would happen to the issues at hand. What I could control was more helpful. This was especially true in the present moment. It was often left to my ability to decide how I chose to live it.

I had to learn to let go of the worries that I had when it came to living my life. There were times when it was overwhelming and uncomfortable. I worried about things that couldn’t be fixed at that moment. Sometimes the answer is not known. Other times, we can’t make the answer be what we want it to be. We can only speculate and that can at times make things worse than what they are. It is best to often put the worries aside. Do what makes you happy in the moment. This brings you joy and happiness instead of all the negativity that you know you don’t want in your life. It makes putting aside the issues at hand better to manage, letting go of the anxiety that you are experiencing.

For far too long I worried about things that I often had no control over. I wanted to be the one to fix things so they would be comfortable for me. But the reality was that something were not capable of being the way they needed to be for me. I had to accept the fact that I had to roll with the punches that were delivered to me. I wanted to continue with things if they were delivered differently. So, I had to learn to adapt to the changes that were set forth. Change and uncertainty are some of the challenges that cause me anxiety. But I was taking an unnecessary amount of time overthinking and ruminating about them. That was not helping. In fact, it made things worse. That is when I had to realize that I had to live in the moment.

I had to find what brought me joy and happiness along with the interests that kept my brain going. On top of that, I had plenty of other things to do that I often neglected. I realized that things would never be the same. If I eased my brain by making things the best in the moment, life would be more manageable. It would be easier to get through. There was a possibility that I would even forget the worries I was experiencing.