It has been a long year. Understanding how my mood affects those around me is important. It matters to me as well. For the longest time, I have known this deep down inside. Yet, I never really understood why things are what they are. I need to improve at understanding the relationship between self-care and my behavior. This will help me conduct myself more effectively in the outside world.

There have been many times over the years that I have not been capable of being my best self. My mother has been the person that I have always gone to. I have shown my wrath to her because I felt safe doing so. But it has also been the autistic masking that has been done too. This is when you hide what is really going on because autism has its way of showing itself badly. It too has caused an effect of autistic burnout on me as a result of not caring for myself.

After a long week of struggling to regulate my emotions, I realized I hadn’t taken care of myself as needed. This neglect affected others and led to autistic burnout within me. I knew that while I had to take the time to recharge from what I was experiencing was tough. I understood that being consistent with my mental health treatment was essential. I needed this consistency to keep my well-being and be at my best. I realized that my irrational behavior towards others was resolved by caring for myself. It was important to care for myself in the way I needed to care for others.

In the process of recovering, it can be hard to admit that the day is lessened. It is not what you plan it to be. In the end, it does lead to better days on the horizon. That is what I needed to see. I can overcome the small issues that I had, and things do eventually get better. It just takes being patient and giving myself grace.

Things do get better as times goes on, but consistency is key. It is not happen that way. Nonetheless, making progress is important. It is as crucial as lacking what you need to achieve your goals. In the end, I know that I am stronger. My flawed thoughts have doubts about things like medication. Still, medication is needed in my mental health recovery. Sleep is also required for recovery.

I have been much better than I was in the past. I know that whenever I faced difficulties before, it was because I was not taking care of myself. At times, it’s hard to admit. I know that I need to do things like sleep and take medication. This helps me to be my best in a world that is not often made to my needs.

I can overcome this just like I can overcome anything that I have overcome in the past. It takes practice and dedication to make the right decision. Do not let flawed thoughts get in the way.