In the last few months, my perspective on the world has changed. I now navigate it differently to achieve a successful quality of life. As time has changed, I used to feel like power and control meant everything in the world. Now, I realize I need to understand my role in the places I am. I also need to understand the times I am in at a given moment. Because I think I want control, I must first understand my role.

Regardless of your neurotype, you can experience an inferiority complex. It involves understanding your place within things and knowing your boundaries. You can’t step out of these boundaries to do what you need to do on command. Understanding the supervisory principles of the world while allowing yourself to understand that there are ways that things are done. There will be times when feedback or criticism is given. It is important to accept it rather than react to it. Reacting cause greater concern.

There can be times when it can be challenging to autistic people to be told things about themselves. It took me a long time to understand that it was not seen as a way of distaste or dislike. Instead, I realized that I have a role in any situation that I am in. This role needs to be respected at all times to avoid being subjected to insubordination. I never break any rules or practices. There are opportunities in my life that I do not want to lose by obeying the orders I am given. So, I understand that it is essential to follow these practices.

My disabilities or challenges do not give me an excuse. I can’t avoid doing things just because they are difficult to accept. There is a reality with things and some of those things I have understood the necessity of taking responsibility for. I know what is proper. I understand that I can’t do as I want simply because of who I am. This is true regardless of my neurotype or disability. There are rules and expectations that need to be met. Even if it’s hard to acknowledge when I do something wrong, I have to work at making it right.

I am not saying that conflict will never happen. It does at times. Still, if you know that you are in the wrong, then you must take the necessary actions. Make sure the issue is addressed. At least prove and document it properly. This way, you have the advantage of showing that you at least tried. Similarly, knowing that your mental health is cared for is important. This lets you get feedback and criticism appropriately. You must avoid reacting inappropriately or in a way that harm your ability to get services, opportunities, and support. Known expectations can be met despite challenges. You know you can do this; you just have to take action. Maybe someone telling you that you can do it provides the initiative needed.

Regardless, I know that I must be capable of understanding my role wherever I am. There are boundaries that must be kept. Expectations must be met. It is not for me to become argumentative or show power because I feel that I need to have control. It can be powerful to realize my capabilities. I can now do things I once never believed I was capable of because I wasn’t cognitively capable. Sometimes, direction is what you need to keep going ahead.