One of the biggest things that autistic people struggle with is transitioning from one thing to the next. Moreso my personal struggle is when there is no concrete necessity to make the transition from one thing to the next. When there is that absolute need to make that transition, then it is a moot point as I do understand the necessity of it needing to take place, however when the necessity is not there, I am mostly unmotivated and that is where the struggle lies within.

It can be struggling in those moments when I ponder on what to do from one thing to the next. I sit or lay and think about what I could do to keep my mind occupied or think of things that need to be done or could be beneficial to my mental wellbeing. However, the drive to do so is rather null and as such it can be challenging to make the moves necessary to do so.

In my right mind, I know there is a need to keep occupied to some degree in order to cope with how my brain treats the null mind by filling it with unhealthy and useless thoughts that I know could set me back further than where I need to be in my personal progress. I know that there is a time when I know I must do things like eat, clean up my space or after myself that are necessary along with the necessity of boarding the bus to go places that I need to go to that is not going to wait for me for an extended period of time. While with the bus there are no definite parameters when they arrive, there is a frame in which I know that I must be ready be prepared to board so that is something that I know that I must do.

There is a struggle when it comes to transitioning to bed because while I know that I need the necessary amount of sleep in order to be ready the next day at the time I need to go where I need to go, it can be hard to accept that in real time and that has been where the issues lied within a certain medication I am on for many years and accepting the need to take it and make that transition. However, after I discovered that the medicine in question is not only used to slow down my mind, but also used in a combination with another medication to treat my bipolar disorder and as a result relapsing as I did last year is very dangerous in the long run. I have finally learned that lesson once and for all and as difficult as the transition at night can be to go through, deep down I know it is best, especially in the present moment when the caring for my mental health is mostly in my hands.

As I set forth through 2025 and beyond with the hope of again a better summer with the best faculties as possible it is understanding that dealing with transitions is one of the struggles that comes with being autistic and that is just the way life is if I want to do the things that I want to do. It can be hard to admit but as with anything in my life if I want to do the things that I do then I have to go for them because I know I can, and it is also necessary for my mental well-being. It is one of those things that I know will get better within time.