In the last several years I have let my emotions get in the way of not applying my filter when approaching those I love the most with hurtful dialogue that is nonproductive and even damaging to both them and myself when it comes to me realizing that it is not truly what I feel at heart, but in my moments that I cannot channel my emotions properly so I can get through the storm I am experiencing I instead engage in a variety of dialogue that I know that I need to stop.

It has been said that people with mental health challenges often hurt those that they love the most because they know that they have unconditional love, which is many times unwavering. But what if there is just no more support or energy for those who love their challenged loved one to give?

There have been many instances in which the tables could have been turned into me getting mental health treatment that I just needed to do what I have known to do all along. I have recognized that many times I have been fortunate to have the chance to take care of my mental health on my own recognizance by stepping away from things until I was settled to return.

Even after doing so many times, I never really recognized the repercussions of what could happen if I was not only conscious of my mental health care which in turn helps me cope with the challenges in life where words would be used that are hurtful to those that I love the most. Even though they do not show it, I know it hurts them inside and there is a genuine worry for my mental faculties.

With recent events that have happened in recent months, I now realize that it is ever more important to be sure that I am continuing to be cognizant of my mental health by ensuring that I am taking care of myself including being adhering to my medications and taking care of my overall health in the progress as well.

There is only so much that family can give, and it has come to a point where there is not a lot to give me, therefore it is crucial that I be aware of the repercussions of not taking care of my mental health. Those that are in authority over me can only give me so many chances before they too are unwilling to put themselves in danger for fear of the uncertainty of when I am not myself. There has been a series of logical understandings of what the realities of what could happen if I crossed into the wrong path when my mental state is not the best. I know that it scares those around me because they know too much about these dangers, and they also know that it would be tragic if I had to undergo them. It is taking care of my mental health that allows me to control my word choice and that is what matters the most.