Over the years, there have been many times when I was not consistent with my medication regimen. As a result, it was difficult to gauge my state of mental well-being. Part of that was also that I was not honest about it and as a result as I made decisions that were not the best, I was living in a lie that was a big secret and as a result it hurt and scared people in the process. By being consistently myself, I am seeing that I am doing so much better than I had been in several years because I am taking the care of my mental health seriously.

It was hard for me to be serious about my mental health treatment because it was like a double-edged sword. When I wasn’t caring for myself, I liked the person that I was because of the symptoms that I was experiencing and even though I thought they weren’t hurting anyone at first, eventually they did. As a result, I scared others and caused them to be concerned about my well-being as a result of me not doing what I knew that I needed to do.

Now, I know that by doing what I needed to do consistently because there is a greater benefit to my mental health when I do so, I can see the value of doing so. There are also many other reasons because I can see that the old self that I used to know is coming back when I am following my medication regimen consistently as I have been doing this year because I am able to manage life’s challenges so much better than what I had done previously.

Life has always been subject to change, but in the last year it has been even more volatile for me and as such it has been better when I do what I need to do to take care of my mental health including adherence to my medication regimen. Although things happen, I do what I need to do to get back on track when it comes to being prepared for those moments so I can be my best self when things are more complicated. In the end, I know that it is best to take the medicine so my chances to be able to respond rather than react are more achievable and attainable when I am my best self consistently.

Being my best self consistently also allows me to be open to having more opportunities that I would not otherwise have been able to because I was shielding myself from them because I was unwilling to see myself beyond what I allowed myself to see myself capable of doing. Being my best self consistently allows me to step out of my comfort zone with much more ease and desire to do what I need to do to be a better person and open more doors than what are open presently, thus making my life better in the process.

In the end, I realized that being consistent with my mental health treatment allows me to be more of the person that I need and want to be. I can be a good person if I have the right tools in place to by my best self and my mental health medications are the best tools that I have so I can live a life that is ever challenging and always changing.