I want to tell you about someone who overcame so many feelings and emotions to finally let go and just live my life.

In November 2023, it was hinted that the way that I got to work and day service would change.

I exclaimed that “people have anxiety” and I want to be “discharged” so I could scour the dumpsters and blessing boxes for food to live.

The next week I got the word that the change would happen in just one week.

As much as I wanted to run away from making the change, I had to give it a chance.

I knew of some people that have used the same service for over a decade.

If they were still using it, then I believed that I needed to at least try it.

So I did.

And while it took some time to understand how it operated, it became natural.

Nearly a month and a half later, I was told I would be responsible for getting to and from work on my own in a month and a half.

But I was so confident that I made the switch in just two weeks.

While I was making the transition easily, I was still feeling a host of emotions on the side.

Anger, Frustration, Resentment, Revenge, Vindictiveness, and many more.

There’s also been echolalia / scripting about my feelings including phrases about the transition

Recently I have worked through those emotions and I no longer experience those things.

I have processed the pros and cons of both of the situations and learned that the present situation is much better.

It has so greatly improved that I’m more relaxed and flexible in the process.

It has been my time to transition from one thing to another and not be so tweaked out when things are unbeknownst to me.

But I’m in a much better place about the situation than I was even a few weeks ago.

I’m providing myself that I can get through the challenging situations that cross my path.

I just need to be patient, give myself some grace and find out how to properly process what I’m experiencing.

From being totally resistant to making this change to totally embracing it in my life, I proved that I can overcome what I’m feeling and become totally free of the fear and avoidance of what I was feeling for so long.

Things get better.

It may not be straightforward. It takes time.