Life is all about choices. I am fortunate to be able to make many choices in my life. However, many choices that I used to make were not always the best choices that I made. I have started to realize that I need to make better choices for both my mental and physical health.

It can be hard to make choices that do not have the most pleasure for me. They can many times require work and dullness to the routine and not have what I really want. But there is a reality that there have been many wrong choices that I have made over the past few years that eventually caught up to me and began to hurt myself physically, mentally, and physically.

Tough decisions are not always easy to make. They can be hurtful and not what I would like to have happened in my life. They are part of what adulting really is in life and I do realize that I need to finally grow up and do what I need to do because my life depends on me doing what I need to do to be and stay well. If I continue to go down a negative path both mentally and physically, I am not hurting myself but others that enjoy my company as well. There must be a limit of what I can do and there is a reality of what I need to do to be well. That means being honest and continuing to care for my mental and physical well-being, even if I do not feel like doing it.

Being autistic, it can be hard to define what those limits are and when enough is enough. But there comes a time when there are certain factors that arise in one’s situation that you realize that enough is enough and you have to start heading off in a better direction so that you do not continue down a more dangerous path that you are on by continuing to hurt yourself continuously until you do something so damaging that it cannot be repaired.

It can hurt one’s feelings when they are unable to do the things that others have been able to do because of the factors that can be easy to fix. As hard as it can be to not want to do what is necessary to be done, there is a reality that I just need to do what is necessary for the betterment of the physical health as much as possible to corroborate with my physical health so I can do more things that I can enjoy and not continue to play the poor me card or think that certain things are not my fault, when in fact I need to be the one behind the changes that I know are bad, yet I continue to make the choices that continue to hurt me financially, physically and so forth.

I know I need to do better with all dimensions of health and that starts with making better choices by making better decisions as it relates to my food, beverages and caring for my mental health. I can only live in the land of denial for so long before reality sets in and catches up to me and then it is too late to fix the problems that I have neglected.