Throughout the past six or so years, I have not always been honest about caring for my mental health, but more and more I see that even not caring for it in the slightest way is hurtful to me and does not only make me my best self but continues to set me in a destructive path. Therefore, I must do what I need to do to care for myself every day, no matter what.

Caring for my mental health can be quite simple, but at times I make out to be worse than what it really is. I want to blame certain things, but they are caught up and ready to go with what life is expecting of me. I now realizing that it is important no matter what comes across my path that I need to be ready for the challenging circumstances that are in my way. Therefore, constant care of my mental health, not when I think or feel like it is not the only way to work at solving the problems that are of the battle.

Indeed, it has been a battle over the past six or so years, but as I am on the cusp of living in my current apartment for four years next month, I am ready to put those useless feelings that I had about what I was not doing to care about my mental health to rest. Not caring for myself in the way that I need to only sets me up for me not being able to be my best and handle myself in the way that I need to. I am less regulated and more animated.

There has been so much that has changed in the past year and there is always the possibility of having something become uncertain at a moment’s notice that can cause oneself to become unregulated and unbecoming of who they are, including myself. I have seen it time and time again and again, I have finally realized that I need to put the skeletons that I have been hiding in my closet for so long to rest because I or no one else deserves me when I am not my best self. That includes caring for my mental health in all necessary forms that I need to because doing so is very important to how I can interact with others and withstand what comes across my path.

Lately, I have been doing a lot of letting go with past things. The past habits that I have been doing to not care for my mental health are one of the things that I am ready to finally put to rest because I am realizing that it is hurting me every time, I don’t take care of myself in any and all ways that are beneficial to my mental health. That includes journaling, medication, sleep and showering along with working on and adhering to my Wellness Recovery Action Plan (WRAP). All these things are very important to my mental health, and all play a part in ensuring that I follow the continuum to being well, because everyone deserves me at my best, including myself. I realize that I am only hurting myself when I do not take care of my mental health and the nastiness of myself comes out when I don’t take care of myself, and I am just tired of living my life in a lie just to be diminished and thinking that it is better for me when it is not. I deserve to live a good life and move on from past practices that were unhealthy for me. I am finally ready to move on by caring for my mental health every day.