Over the past few weeks, it has been hard to be patient with myself when there has been a continual expectation that things are to be there when they are expected. In life, things change and as such it is important to be patient and even though it is not my strong suit, it is imperative to work at being better understanding that things do not always happen as they are expected to.

It would be amazing if everything happened in the way that we wanted to. However, when you are working with systems that are struggling to make things happen, it can be difficult to have things be perfectly met. Therefore, things sometimes require us to be patient and learn how to cope with waiting times.

I do not do well when it comes to waiting times. There can be many thoughts of uncertainty that are brewing throughout the brain that can be negative that can rise my anxiety to a higher level that makes things unpleasant. I have done many things in my due diligence to make others know that things are challenging for me and to properly prepare me for when things are challenging, but there is additional fear when it comes to making sure that my needs are going to be met.

I know I must do better when it comes to making sure that I am not overthinking and jumping to conclusions about things. It can be hard when it comes to believing many negative things about what could happen when in fact, they have yet to happen to me. The anxiety process is elevated when there is an uncertainty of when things are going to happen. But I must be patient with the system and let things work out for themselves.

It can be hard to let things work out for themselves. There is more of uncertainty that things are not going to happen in the way that they need to happen because of the extra observance on my part to ensure that things go the way that I need them to. But I never have tried to see if doing things the way that they need to be done will work out for themselves in the way to which they are prescribed.

Sometimes, as hard as it can be, we must let things just work out for themselves and see how they go. Even though we live in fear of missing out on things that we are used to, we must do what we know is set up to happen because we eventually are going to have to do things that way anyway, so why not start earlier to see if it works for me.

Making changes is a hard for me, especially when it comes to being patient . It can be hard to be willing to step out of the comfort zone and do whatever has been setup for us to make things easier, but there is some uncertainty when it comes to seeing if things will actually work for what they are intended to be and they will never be proven if I do not give them a try. Part of that is working to be patient and understanding with myself in the process.