Sometimes, I am critical of things that I experience, especially when I am to myself, and the thought train overrides about what I am thinking. Though I am experiencing thoughts that often put me beside myself and think my life is the worst possible thing I am experiencing, in most cases it is my brain overreacting and it is not bad.

Just in that last sentence took me a lot to understand that what I am experiencing is just thoughts processing and that I am not in any danger. Overthinking about things that may not even involve me or where I constantly feel like there are going to be repercussions about the situation can cause a great deal of stress. It is knowing how to manage the situation and realize that I am making it a bigger deal than what it is.

Through understanding that has allowed me to realize that they and many other thoughts are not reasons to overreact to things. It is not living in fear and wanting to avoid something that is challenging for me. It is knowing that the potential is going to be intensified if I allow it to. It does not require me to occupy the minds of those that support and care for me with my thoughts that are in most cases not an issue at all.

In essence, over the years when fighting thoughts in my head, reacting to negative energy, handling challenging situations or even recovering from a meltdown I have increasingly been better at problem solving and staying engaged on my own, although I know that I could do better in some situations, it is a  learn and go process that takes time to understand and learn how to avoid those pesky little thoughts.

I know I am capable of so much and I have made so much progress over the years. Through meltdowns in the past year or so has made see how beverage choices play a role in making sure that I keep my emotions in check and can aid in not reacting to challenging or energized situations. While soda is still an issue, eliminating the need for caffeine over the past year and intense sugar has helped my cognizance in being able to process when they are intense and work through the situation on my own in most cases.

Through the process of knowing that some things are what they are, proper self-advocacy, understanding how food affects my mental state and how to process thoughts outside of psychotherapy, things are getting better and as hard as I can be sometimes, it can be hard to realize that indeed things are better than what they have been through the course of my independence more so once things have been back a relaxed state have greatly improved more than they ever have been.

 It is not to say that challenges are eliminated, it is just easier to work my way through them, refocusing my train of thought, developing and finding better coping strategies when those moments are more challenging for me. It is not me getting as down and out as I once did or living in total fear and wanting to flee from challenging situations like I once wanted to.

It is known that there has been progress in things and not appearing more like a ‘spoiled little brat’ has taken a lot of effort in not reacting negatively in the toughest of situations because I know that would not be how other that have seen my progress would expect me to act in situations even when it is more challenging, it is known that I am smart and capable of handling myself in challenging situations and can do the best that I can in navigating challenges, but it is much better than it has ever been.