For most of the past four years, I have constantly felt a great deal of pressure to be and do things or not be able to stop until I felt satisfied where I left things. Through acknowledging the need to focus more on my personal wellness along with understanding that I do not have to live my life according to the timeline of what the outside world believes it should be, I have felt so much more at ease about allowing my authenticity to shine more.

Living under the microscope where others  can track your every move can be quite challenging and not be in a good position to do what you need to do to be well. While understanding that I had to make necessary changes by purging a great deal of my digital footprint, it has been also by reducing my workload and acknowledging that I can control the things that I am doing that bring on my own pressure.

While closing a very big book of me not at all being my best the past six years and acknowledging that I need to be more authentic not only about who I am really am, but tailor my authenticity to what helps me stay in the right mindset and not get into a point where I am feeling pressure by perceived sources that are not caring about myself.

I am the one that has brought on my own pressure on by not recognizing the dangers of my addictive personality by understanding that I must act initiative-taking and preventive to live life as I do now not feel the pressure that I have felt in years past. Learning that there is life beyond spending life attached to a mobile device, social media for intense screen time has helped my mental health immensely by not feeling obsessively trapped in an oftentimes one-sided way of living all while making myself vulnerable to others as I have done in the past.

Not having the pressure to adhere to my preconceived targets and expectations has been so relieving and is giving me the chance to work on things that I really have not had the time to work on things that I have needed to address all throughout my adulthood. Taking time to do things and not feeling rushed to do them because I would have been so attached to what is going on in the digital world.

For far too long I have turned by back to realizing that I have allowed the Internet to overrule my life and not realize that there is so many other things that I could use the computer for other than for social media. Do not get me wrong, there are benefits to social media, but there are also many negative dangers and I have experienced them. It took me until I got into a dark spot to realize that social media was ruling my life and that I was under the pressure of the fear of missing out without seeing that there is so much more that I was missing out on. It will be a slow change, but it is getting better every day.