I have been living independently for the past five years. In that time, I have not always done what was necessary to be done to achieve optimal wellness or understand what reality is and not what I think it should be, even if I know it is wrong, there is a reality that I must understand as a person who lives independently.

Being able to move out on my own five years ago was no easy feat, but I did it. There were many things I regret that I was not honest about and there was continual conflict between myself and my loved ones. Yet, my loved ones were the ones that did at times the very dirty work that was needed to get me back on track even though I was not in the right place mentally.

It was having faith and getting what I needed to have so that I am where I am today. And while it took some time to put the issues that I felt that I had a handle of at rest or that I thought that I understood what I really wanted to believe, there has been a realty that I needed to understand and accept about myself that has finally put things back in place and I am again feeling at peace.

It is at this point in my life that I have finally accepted what must be done in life as a human being. It means that there are things that must be done even though they might not be the most favorable to me. This is the reality of adulting and therefore it must also be accepted as what is necessary to live independently.

I have learned that not taking care of my mental health can result in very detrimental consequences that can have a financial burden and can also make life very unpleasant for me. Experiencing what I experienced last summer has taught me that there is a reality and understanding that there are things in my life that must be done that can have effects to me that I may not like, but it is also my responsibility to work at conquering them by counteracting them as much as possible.

While for almost the first five years of living independently, I felt I could do whatever I wanted to do, there is now a understanding that I have to finally reel myself in with what the real world is and do what is needed to live on my own, even if it may not be what I want to do. It is being an adult and part of that is learning to be responsible and prove to myself that I can do what I need to do to live the life that I want and know that I need to.

I have come a long way in this journey, and a lot of people have helped me get there, it is important that I do what I need to do to show them what many of them have taught me to do to live my life as I need to.