For far too long, time has been a factor in my life. Do I have enough time? Are things going to be on time? This has affected whether I have enough time. Can I do the things that I want or need to do? It has hurt me far too many times. It has not cared for my mental health in the way that I need. I need this care to be my best self when needed. This enables me to do the things that I need to do and be there for those that need me.

The things I enjoy have had too much of a grasp on me. It has been more than necessary. Sometimes I need to be honest about my mental health. I must do what is necessary for my well-being and avoid things that can be overwhelming. Being responsible is crucial. I need to do what is necessary, even if I do not want to. This includes caring for my mental health to manage things well. It allows me to do the things that I both want and need to do.

Letting go of desires can be hard. It is often necessary to focus instead on what needs to be done. It feels like I am always fighting against something. One of these is the clock. I strive to make sure that I can do what I want to do. I aim to be the best that I can be both physically and mentally. It can be challenging to stop whatever I am doing. I need to end my day or go wherever I need to go. I know that those things are a reality that must be met in their own way. I have had to organize my bedroom carefully. Electronics are placed out of reach to avoid interrupting sleep. Alarm clocks are moved to the side, requiring me to get out of bed to turn them off. This helps me get moving and start my day. Additionally, I make sure I take my medication the night before, as prescribed. This has been something I struggled with in the past.

It is knowing that life is more than electronics or the cyber space out there that craves so much connection. It is knowing that sleep is essential and valued more than anything else. It is crucial to my mental health, just like the medications that aid with it. There are other factors to guarantee that life flows in a placid stream. It is very important for me to understand that my mental health medications are crucial. They are necessary for me to have the best quality of life. This fact is significant not only to me but also to those around me.

When the clock indicates it’s time, I must do what I need to do. Things go so much better when I do what is prescribed to me and is proven to work. I build my own routine. I do what is right once and for all not only because I have to. I also do it because I need and want to. Yes, it seems that I am always in fear of the clock. I am also better at managing it so I can live my best life.