For so many years I had always focused on the negative. I allowed my anxiety and ruminating thoughts to control my life. This made me want to avoid so much of my life. Many things have changed. I now see that there are many good things to focus on. I choose to see the good things in my life. I no longer focus solely on what is bad.

Granted, this is not a life where I am living in toxic positivism. Rather, I had been living long in a time where I was constantly thinking about leaving what I was doing. This was due to the stress it brought or my unwillingness to bend. I focused more on my own needs than occupying myself with things that do not concern me. In the past few years, I have shifted the narrative. Things changed for the better in many ways. I started working on my mental health, anxiety, and rumination. I realized that I often need to stay in my own lane. I need to focus on what I must do to keep myself well.

There are things in my life that are not perfect. I have chosen not to allow them to bring me hatred. I avoid getting into a negative mindset by not ruminating on things I can’t control. Instead, I know I have the power to act in ways I can control. I prove this to those inspired by me by being the best example I can be.

I allow myself to find moments that bring joy into my life. These moments help me find my own happiness. I am proud and happy to be doing what I can and am capable of doing. I do not think about changing or controlling things that are of no use to me. I believe I have my own comfort and control. I can handle myself just fine without needing to control others. I can see that I have what I need or what I think I need.

It means being willing to be brave. I focus on what is important to me at the moment. I need to be the person that everyone expects me to be. I realize I must not fall back into old habits. Reacting childishly to make a point known is no longer acceptable. I now know that things have changed. There will not be as much latitude given to me as when I reacted similarly in the past.

I am using those skills that I have developed over the past year. I have done this by following what I understood to be the best practices for my situation. It is knowing that even though I doubt it, I am indeed safe and cared for. I also know that I am pretty intelligent. I can care for myself if needed. I do not need to cause attention to make points known because of something that really doesn’t matter to me.

In the end, it boils down to choosing to focus on the things that make me happy. I concentrate on what matters most. It is not always about others. Being the champion does not make things to be proven or finding revenge. It is about living my best life in the here and now!