It is hard to believe. Sixteen years ago, I started working a job that I was not really interested in. It surprises me that I am still there. It has been hard to fight through all the anxiety and changes over the last few years. However, I know that I am in a good place. I am beating becoming a statistic by making my small contribution to society. I now understand that it is more beneficial to work outside the home. It is better than isolating and allowing myself to ruminate over things.

Granted those early days were hard. There were times when I wasn’t working more than I actually was. But I hung in there. It got better and things improved. I had to be willing to open up. While nothing can be perfect, I learned social pragmatic skills as I went. I learned how to communicate effectively with others and do the work that I do. These are things that autistic people can struggle with. If not for those who had hope in the beginning, I would not have the opportunity I have today. I continue to have this opportunity because of them.

It is also knowing that it is important to care for my mental health. I should be there for my coworkers. Being part of a team involves contributing my part to it. Granted, things happen. They hold their parts when needed. That is what makes a great team. My job has changed drastically in recent years. I have been accepting these changes. I am willing to navigate through things. I am willing to adapt as necessary.

It takes being brave and stepping out of my comfort zone, something that at times I have struggled with. I have found it helpful to be open and honest with my leaders. I know that I can go to them for help. There is no shame in doing so. That was probably one of the hardest things I had to learn to accept as part of working. It is knowing that they are there for me. They can help me when I need help. It’s great to have someone step in when I need to, as long as I do not abuse the opportunity.

I am truly grateful for the opportunity to work. Like anything else, I do get frustrated from time to time. However, I always remember that I have the necessary things to be successful at my work. I have the needs and accommodations required to work effectively. Sometimes that can be hard to accept. It is especially challenging when my mind is not in the right place. Eventually, I come to terms with the fact that I am in the best place that I can be.

Knowing the value of not only work but also related services keeps me mentally stable. It helps me function as an individual who lives independently. This helps me avoid isolation and excessive rumination. It can sometimes be hard to see that. Deep down I know those are some of the biggest tools that keep me well.