For the longest time, I have been stuck in the past about certain things. I have been unable to see that things have changed. I no longer have control over things that I thought I had control over. The process to separate myself has continued. I need to know that things are fine. I am safe from what I had feared being traumatic from the past. I have learned to be happy with myself. I have realized that I must let go of things that I can no longer control.

The past has been traumatic and challenging for me in its own way. It has been hard to be willing to understand that things are different now. Despite everything, I am safe. There is still a part of me that clings to the idea of control. I want to control others for my safety. Yet, it is clear that I am already fine and taken care of. I feel the need to control others. I think that things should be the way I want them. In reality, I am not in charge of others. I must understand that they and others are overseeing me to make sure my safety.

I believed I control others to make things what they are. I had to let go of this belief to find my own peace. I have to understand that holding on to unhealthy beliefs is harmful. Thinking I can control everything only worsens my mindset. It causes unnecessary rumination that can be quite burdensome. Instead, I must work at better managing my thoughts and emotions when I become stressed. Things that are bothersome to me should not make me react or ruminate. I will not let them ruin my day.

I control my destiny. I decide what I want to make of each day that I go through. I am making the day irritating by allowing others’ actions to overtake me. These actions are not mine. I let them bother me until they become the focus of my life. There is so much more to know and do about my life. These pursuits are more rewarding and refreshing than what I allow to entertain and ruminate in my brain. Those things are not my place to control. I know I can do better if I want to. Sometimes, I just need a spark to change the narrative. This will help in making things better.

Past experiences have influenced me to believe in things that I had no business believing or knowing. It is up to me to change the narrative. I must focus on being in the here and now. I should avoid living in the same old rut. This will prevent making life miserable for me and those I think I need to control. This control stems from past beliefs and practices that are no longer existent. I can improve by letting go of the past. I need to see things for what they are in the present moment.