If anyone knows me and that I am autistic, the ideal that I do not like change is pretty real. While there has been a lot of changes that have happened the past two years. Sometimes the changes bring the best out of us. Other times not so much. One thing I have learned is that I must keep pushing out of my comfort zone. This is true no matter how hard it is.

In the past several years it has been that I was not as mentally grounded as I have been. I had to realize that doing the right thing in that arena is essential. It makes handling uncomfortable situations easier. I had to start improving things for a better quality of life. Being in a better mindset made it more achievable. Many times before, I couldn’t even imagine taking the hard steps I needed. These steps were essential to make my future better.

Sometimes, things happen with what we have long found comforting. These events reveal that we have outgrown them. We must learn to start working on things that make us uncomfortable. We need to take that step even if we don’t want to. Things happen to the point that the things that make it comfortable for us are taken away. It made me realize something important. If I had to be uncomfortable about one thing, I as well do the thing I have put off. I had wanted to play the blame game for it for so long.

The reality was that I was comfortable doing what I was doing, even if it had no purpose. Eventually I got myself back on track to see that there was no purpose. At the same time, I realized that familiar things were going to change. They were not going to be the way I had been used to. Either way, I had to do what was uncomfortable. I had to accept that doing something uncomfortable should eventually lead to the discomfort going away. It pushed me to be honest about the future. I started doing things that I always found uncomfortable.

I had begun to feel trapped where I was. I knew that I had to find a way out. In the past, I was not in the right place mentally. I understood that I had to regain control. If I took care of myself, then the right things would happen. I needed to take the steps to make them a reality. I realized more and more that I needed to make things real. I had to focus on making a difference in myself.

Change along with taking risk can both be uncomfortable and scary. A part of me understood the signs that I needed to do it. I was also in a much better place to do it. I had to let go of the fears and discomfort I was experiencing. I needed to break free from what I always knew I wanted to do. I had the opportunity to do it.