A few months ago, I had asked someone if I had been making progress in my behavioral health. They had said that I had made lots of progress. It can be hard to give myself the accolades that I should be giving myself, but I know that I have been putting in the hard work that has been needed to overcome my struggles and be a better person.

There has been a hard understanding of the fact that I change the world around me. Rather, I am focused on more of what I can control no matter how hard that it is for me to do the things that I need to do to protect myself the moments that in the past I wanted to control everything just so I could experience my own personal comfort.

I had to learn that I could not control or let go of others just because they gave me anxiety, even when I had felt that they were against me, but they totally were not. I had to let go of what was and move on to the way things were amidst so many changes that were challenging along the way that were at times difficult, and I pushed through.

It took a lot of work, and I had hard time seeing it, always believing that it was never the best that I could be. I had to start to understand that it has been the best that it was despite the many changes that I had been through the two years along with how important it was to keep fighting the fight no matter how hard temptation tried to get in me, I knew I had to fight it off and be the best that I could be because it was the self that I had grown to know and love.

It can be hard to admit that you need to make improvements. There were times that I was unwilling to accept realities about myself and that I had to better myself and for the right reasons, not just because of someone telling me. It became irritating to hear the advice of others, but it also felt relieving to know that there would not be a much of a struggle if you had done what they said because you discovered that what they were telling you was right all along.

Over the past decade I have battled I battle that many did not know about until it showed its worst. Those close to me knew how to look for the signs and how much I had wanted to play the blame game for doing or not doing what I needed to do, I eventually came to terms with what had to be because I had a really hard reality check to see that I had to do what they had said all along.

I can’t look into a crystal ball and see what the future has for me. But what I can do is live my best in the moment, day, hour or task that I am. I can learn to move forward from the past as a building block on my journey to a more successful life.