This past cycle I have shared about how not caring about my mental health has made me irritable at times. Knowing that has allowed me to understand something important. Being irritable can affect how I see things. It can lead to perceptions that are not completely valid or true. This has been the case for many years. Sometimes it leads to beliefs that affect my mood. I end up seeing things differently than they are.

It can be what makes or breaks what you do for someone. Alternatively, it causes others to see something wrong with someone that is not true. When I am irritated about something, I at times take it out on things that shouldn’t be taken out on. I believe because I am feeling a certain way about something, that is the way that others should be.

There have been several times where I have not allowed myself to believe in what was actually happening. Things were stressed to me in ways that I would not control. That is what I believed. It was not the way it was in that moment. It took me a long time to stop believing that things were a certain way. This belief was because of what I was led to believe.

Eventually, I cleared myself of believing the way that I felt about things. I was irritated and angry. This was partly because I was not caring for my mental health in the way that I needed to be. Once I started to get mentally stable, I recognized that many beliefs were not entirely true. I had perceived them in a certain way because I was irritated. I wanted to direct my energy onto those behind the change for my feelings.

Changes were hard to make. Eventually, I realized they greatly saved my mental health. I wasn’t taking care of myself properly in the past. Nevertheless, they resolved many of my prior issues. I had to understand myself and others. It was not only about me. I needed to see things with a clear mind. It is important to care for my mental health each and every day.

We are all susceptible to being irritable. But if we take the necessary steps to care for ourselves, we can manage our challenges effectively. This makes us see that people have our best interests at heart. They do this instead of wanting to destroy us. As a result, our lives become much better as a result.

I am proud that I recognized I think about things differently when I am irritated. It made me understand that I need to take care of my mental health each and every day. That caring for my mental health and autism matters no matter what is or is not happening. I see that people really care about me. They care about the things that I need. They are not out to get me.