Throughout my life, I have been blessed to have many people support me and even believe in my potential. sometimes when I did not believe in it myself. Even though I can navigate through life quite well, there are times when I still need support. Sometimes it was hard to see that there were people who had my best interest at heart. I was led to believe differently. At times, this prevented me from reaching out. I did not allow myself to believe that they really had my interest at heart and not their own.

I don’t always see it. Even when I was not the best towards those who can be there for me, I know it now. They are there for me when others I relied on for support and safety are not available. Autistic people often struggle with naivety toward what they hear. They also can be naive about what they are told or see. This happens before just taking the initiative and asking for the help that they need. This can paint a false narrative. You believe that the one you are reaching out to does not have your best interest at heart. But sometimes, like I had said yesterday, you need to take a chance. By taking that chance, you can see how things really are. You will not see what others want you to believe.

Granted, people make mistakes. That is what makes us human. Still, continuing to judge the person based on many factors is unwise. They themselves not even have realized these factors. We should not automatically judge them or what others are led to believe about them. Sometimes it requires knowing the reality of the situation. In the end, others not have your best interest at heart. They rank their own opinions. They do this without considering how detrimental it was to the mental health of those that needed to trust them.

I have begun to be more honest about my need of help. I have realized that there is no shame in doing so. There is no shame in asking for help for anything. People are going to talk. But it is more about what is important for you to get what you need to thrive. The world possesses many challenges. Especially when there are many different ways to see and think about a situation. I have learned that if I have a question, it’s best to ask for help. This avoids making things more complicated in the end for me.

Sometimes, life experiences make you see who has been there for you all along. It is about recognizing that they value you and the work you do. Even though things differ from your expectations, the most important thing is to have the essential supports and needs. Perfection is lacking, but having support matters most. It has been a long road. It has taken a toll on my mental health. Eventually, I have known who to trust when I need to ask for help. I know that my needs are going to be met without shame or judgment. It takes breaking down the fear of being judged. You should know that is sometimes what people are there for in the first place.