Life these past few months has made me stronger in many ways as I have begun to be in the throes of my parents’ situation as my father has been home for over the past two months and the necessity of being more independent has resulted in me to be able to problem solve on my own more as I have begun to untether myself more from my mother as she must divide her time more as there are other needs that  she must attend to.

One Saturday morning, we had a really bad storm that caused my wireless router to go out. While I problem solved, I discovered that I needed to purchase a new router. The only issue was that I was uncertain about being able to take a bus to the store, as it was already later in the day, so I had to result in having it delivered from the local supercenter.

Signing back on for the delivery service was something that I seen was a need. Although I did it when coming off a manic episode nearly two years ago, this time the price was half cost due to them having a program for those that have needs. So, I signed up and as a result and not being too cost-prohibitive, a router was delivered to me in short order. Within a few minutes of its arrival, I got my Internet back up and running and continued the process over time.

As the day went on, my mother needed to go to the same store for a fitness tracker, of which I obliged to go as I knew that I would have to also get that back online. As she went shopping, she had a large order that would fill the cart. When we checked out, we had a regular cashier and realized that my mother was the only one this time with the order and therefore I helped her put her bags in the cart and then because I had gone to my parent’s house, I again helped by bringing in the items necessary.

Through all this I discovered that this has been able to make things easier for us as I had gotten a pickup from the same store some days earlier. It has helped me keep on my food plan while keeping costs down in other areas such as DoorDash for example and having that need to want something but be able to get it that it is not the item that is really healthy or properly made  or is not “just right” for it to be manageable for me.

It has been a challenging year and while there has been many things about the past year that has been challenging, it has made me a better man in so many ways because of it. I thought that having to be responsible on my own or do thing so much to the extreme would be very  rushed, challenging and uncomfortable that I would be so frustrated and overwhelmed that it would be too much and I would result in being back in a place where I was this time last year, but ultimately I saw that I could get my life back on track and understand that I needed to adult and be responsible for my actions and understanding sometimes it takes me to see that I need to be able to make my own decisions in order to get the things that I need in my life.