Throughout my life, it has been hard to see my potential. Potential for growth and the ability to serve more than where I am in my comfort zone. It is hard to see that there is the potential for me to move forward and better myself more than where I am now rather than being stuck in the same ways that I have been stuck in just because it is comfortable for me.

What I also realize that by holding back I feel that I can be deliberate in nature as far as taking care of my mental health as if others can be a casualty to my behavior even though I do not see an issue with it. It can be hard to realize that there is an issue or that it is OK to do things that are keeping me from realizing that there is so much more potential than what I want to believe or desire to have just because it feels uncomfortable to me at the moment.

There are opportunities to gain experience, but it also means that I have to be more responsible with my mental health. There was a long time when I wasn’t because I was led by fear when opportunities presented themselves, so I did deliberate things in order to feel comfortable and have an excuse for not opening myself to things that I know I needed to do to be more independent.

Life makes us step outside of our comfort zone to do things that make our lives better. Even if we cannot see it, having the potential to do things allows us to do things that are different even if we do not see it, it makes our lives better even if we do not see it. It can bring us opportunities that we cannot even imagine will improve our lives and live in a better future.

I am one to often think that things in my life will be different because I am stuck in a rut that I am in, but I am choosing to do that and instead when opportunities present themselves, I am one to sabotage them because I am unwilling to see that by taking care of my mental health in the way that I need to those opportunities that make me uncomfortable will be easier to manage.

Eventually, I realized that in order to have things be better, I have to do things in order to see that there is potential to do something instead of staying stagnant and practicing the old habits that are brewing old habits and temptations that are unhealthy for me. Part of that is maturing and doing what is right, even when there can be a desire not to do so.

 It can be easy to give in to those old behaviors that were unhealthy for me, but then I realize that they were hurting me instead of helping me. I was unable to see that there was potential if I began to do what was right and that even though I was uncomfortable in taking a step outside of my comfort zone, it would eventually be better to do something that brings a better quality of life.