Life is never ideal. You are going to have good and bad days in your life’s journey. But living a life of constant negativity is no way to live. Finding something wrong with everything is difficult and challenging not only for you but those around you can make life seem more difficult than it is but finding that unseen benefit in each day can be what makes you go.

There have been many times in my life that I have been in a constant state of negativity, especially when my needs are not met, or I must do something that I may not enjoy but is a  part of adulting. 2024 had taught me a lot of that reality and what made me understand going into 2025 is that it is my responsibility to make sure that I am taking care of myself to ensure that I am indeed able to live the best possible life that I can.

There is no doubt that I learned in later 2024 that my medication was one of those things that aid in that effort. Battling reality with it for most of the time I was living on my own, I realized that I was my worst self and unable to handle challenging situations that were difficult for my brain to digest when I was not my best self. I was not only hurting myself in this process, but I was hurting those around me and especially those that I loved too. That is not who I want to be around them at the time when they need me the most.

There is a part of me that once liked making others feel miserable for the way that I was feeling by being negative and not appropriately using my “filter” when saying things to them, instead saying insulting or hurtful things about them to somehow make myself feel good about hurting them. Now that I realize that I was not my best self when I was doing that because I was not happy myself or understood that I need to do certain things to make others feel good because they want me to for all the times that they couldn’t, there is nothing more that I need to do than take care of myself so I can be for them when they need me the most.

It can be hard when it feels like life treats you so wrongly and wants to fight you when you do anything and everything, but the reality is that life is not always going to go the way that you want it to go. Things are going to happen that you are not going to like to do but are going to become necessary to make life happen for you. As much as you want to feel like you do not have anything to find happiness about your life, there is always something to be happy about, you just must find what that is. It can be hard sometimes to find what that is but after you dig hard enough, you will find it.

Life is challenging, I get it, but it can be more challenging and bitter if you do not find a way out of constantly being negative and living a life of misery. Working to find a way out of that misery can be the best thing you can do for yourself, believe me, I know, and it has helped me.