Throughout the past year or so, after a major change in the way that I am transported was made, I was continuously angry and would script thoughts that I was led to believe were true, but in fact were not without having a grasp on what they real situation behind what involved the change to what it is now and that overall it is has more pros than cons.

Many times, the thoughts that have been told to me for several years take precedence in my brain before the reality of the situation becomes known. Deep down, I know why things are what they are and that things are much better because of them. Just as things were in the past, not everything is perfect, but the needs are met and that is what matters. Sometimes, it is what makes us a stronger person because we must step outside of our comfort zone and learn to accept the world around us as it is, even though we want to be mad about it.

Change is hard for anyone, especially an autistic person such as me. There is a reluctancy to accept things for what they are and want to pass the blame or be angry at those behind the change without being able to see the whole situation or allow us to see that the current method is better than what past practices. Continuing to believe things that are never going to come back to the way that my brain wants them to be is only continuing to hurt myself and until I have started the process of letting the hatred go that I have for that I will never be free of my harsh feelings towards that.

Also, a part of that is realizing that I do not have control of the way others operate. If my needs are met, and I am safe is what matters. I must be able to control what I can and part of that is how I react to things that are out of my control. I must be able to understand that I cannot fix things that are out of my control and instead think of what my purpose is for being where I am. I have not seen others in the reactive state for as long as I have been and therefore, I am the only one that holds a false grudge over the things that are no longer valid or even able to be. Part of letting go is understanding that those things that were not going to return in the way that they were, and I am much better in the state of how things operate now.

Sometimes part of letting go is accepting the fact that things have changed, and the reality is what it is. Things are going to happen that are going to make me angry, but most of all, it is understanding that most of those things are out of my control, therefore I need to be grateful that things have gone as well as they have been going without any issues and I need to work at developing healthy coping skills at managing my mental health at the times when there are triggering moments.

Most of all, it is understanding reality and the fact that things are what they are, and they are better all around. There are just some factors that we cannot change, and we must do our best.