My brain is always going. It is thinking of many things and while medicine to a great degree controls impulsive thoughts, there can be many times where I think about challenging things that are beyond my own control. While I want to go and fix everything that I see, the reality is that many things I must wait for and see how they play out. At those moments it is important to find healthy distractions to stir my brain away from thinking all the time.

I was one to never believe that things like coping skills, meditation or other practice could work for me. But they can if you try them. If not, you cross them off the list of what you think can help you. You will never know unless you try. It can be hard when feeling down and out and want to think about feeling sorry about myself and the life that I have. But anymore, all I have learned is that it is a very unhealthy way of thinking and laying down in bed feeling sorry for myself is a very unhealthy practice for me. There is so much that I can do, and I need to keep occupied to keep the challenging thoughts from appearing as deep as they can at times.

Life happens the way that it does at times. We cannot change the circumstances that it brings to us. We may want to run away or hide from our obligations or time when we have to ourselves, but we must work at learning how to cope with the challenges that are set forth in our path by finding things that are healthier than the thoughts that are brought forth to our minds.

From my experience, lying in bed, sulking about things that I cannot change or feeling sorry for things that I know I need not do so can only set me up for not caring for myself in the way that I need to. It can be hard to get back on track because of the way that I am feeling, but I know as hard as it can be, taking care of my mental health must be paramount when it comes to doing things in the outside world and  being my best in environments that I cannot control.

It can be hard to be an adult sometimes and want to throw a pity party at the same time for things not going the way that we want them to go. But there is this thing called adulting. As hard as it can be to grow up and do what is needed, we just must do it. Being our best selves to do those things is optimal and, in the times, before and after it is also important to practice healthy coping skills to cope with the challenges that our life brings before, during and after the events happen so we can be our best selves throughout.

I am tired of sulking at things that I cannot change and know that I must do better at coping with the challenging thoughts and echolalia that I experience from time to time. It is up to me to make those changes, or they will not happen. Even if they are small, they matter.