As the year 2024 ends, I am spirited to move forward into 2025 with a sound mind and a new look at life. As I stated yesterday, the past six years have been a handful for me as I have battled so much. But one thing about me is that I have unwavering resilience and that I guess is what keeps me going from the lowest of lows in the past six years when I thought many times that the world was swept beneath me and that I did not have the world as I needed it to be under control and find some sort of stability, I have finally gotten myself into a good spot that has taken nearly four years to find from that time when I hit the worst of the worst.

There is so much going on in the world right now where I have to be grateful for the simplest of things that many people take for granted like a home that they enjoy, laundry equipment, a job, and many other things that many times I don’t realize until I see that could have been me if I did not do the right things through time. While the road that I have been on the past six years has not been in a straight line, through time, understanding and realization, I am finally understand what that recipe that makes my mental health recovery along with being autistic successful.

Granted, while there were some things that I know I should have done all along or I would have not gotten into some of the messes that I got to, in a way I now fully understand and realize what putting myself in that perilous position can do to me and the value that is subtracted when I do so. That is not the person that I want to be and that most of my issues have surmounted from not caring for myself in the way that I needed to.

Now that I am continuing to see more and more of what I need to see in a better and more understanding of a light, there is more of a understanding and necessity of caring for myself continuously going forward and that there will be more opportunities and the fact that I can handle them better if I just do what I know what I need to do to be successful as I have done many years in the past.

Sometimes, when we have flawed thoughts about things, they can set us into a delirious path because for the longest time we believed things in a different way without being able to see the whole picture of doing something. Letting goes of the past hatred and believing that things were put into place because others believed something and not the experts was totally misleading and for that I wish I had believed things before they had gotten out of hand the way that they did.

There is nothing that I can change from the past other than it has been quite the learning curve for me and that due to my unwavering resilience that I can continue to move forward, bouncing back from adversity being the better person that I was the past six years, putting the past and the flawed thoughts that hurt me behind me and moving forward.