Through everything that has been happening the past year, it has been hard to love and be proud of myself despite the struggles, there has been some sense that I need to be proud of myself for getting through them without minimal setback. There is also the need to love myself more instead of routinely putting myself down for the deficits that I experience.

Without a doubt there have been many setbacks over the past four decades that I have been in this world, but for as many setbacks as there has been there has been as many times that I have either bounced back from adversity or overcame those setbacks by proving so many doubters wrong that I can do what I need to do, maybe with some help, adaptation or accommodation, maybe on my own. Regardless, I have done so much that many have said that I could never do it, but in that vein, it can be hard to be proud of those moments.

For me, it is just what I do. The expectations or the goal are set, and I work at attaining what has been set forth. Yet, it can be hard to see how hard it can be to get where I want to be and be proud of myself for all the accomplishments that I have achieved within myself. And this is not to gloat or glorify myself, but often I am the one that disregards the fact that I have overcome so much and more recently a greater deal of things in a shorter period that I have not seen until last week until it has been brought to my attention that I need to be proud of what I have achieved.

In respect to loving myself, that too respectively can be hard to do because there is so much doubt that I can be someone that can be as enjoyable or as loved as I am. Although I have always been reassured that I am loved, it can be hard to feel that way when there are struggling moments approach, I instantly want to think about how horrible things are for me and not see those positive moments where I overcame so much and how those that love and care for me are so proud of me. As I am sitting here crafting this story I know of so many that are so proud of how far I have come in life as well of those that follow my journey online and are amazed of how much I have overcome in my life despite the struggles that have come in my life, I overcome them and work towards being the better person that is proud and loves myself.

Regardless, I know I have to do better when it comes to being proud and loving myself because if I may open myself up more, there can be so much potential that I can be willing to share to others that would not only bring delight to my eyes but also brings the fact that I have to be proud of myself and love myself more and maybe better things could happen to allow me to see that if I am worthy of extending myself more, better things could happen to me and my mental health could be improved more.