A lot has changed in my journey as far as dealing with intrusive thoughts. Up until a few weeks ago, I have had a continuous stream of intrusive thoughts about things that are no longer valid or cannot change. While the thoughts themselves are not totally gone from my headspace, I am doing much better when it comes to reframing those thoughts into better words.

This time of year, can be more challenging with my thoughts as I often want to rehash old thoughts about things that I cannot change or are no longer valid. One of the biggest things that I have come to terms with is the fact that utilizing the county shared-ride system is going to be a part of my life, whether  I like it or not. I like it for many reasons, and it has been more beneficial to my day service than what it involves me in.

It has improved my mental health so much greater to the fact that I am not being nowhere near as verbally aggressive at others for the thoughts that I had in my mind for a very long time or making me want to forget other things such as work, something that while transportation gets me to and from, is not totally connected to the thoughts themselves. It has allowed me to have a more fulfilling and productive time at work because of eliminating the past barriers that I had.

Because I had long believed things about the way that things were to be done without seeing beyond my personal scope of how things operate and the fact that there is more than I see or was led to believe drew those intrusive thoughts that at times exist. They are now much less than they were for the longest time because I have personally chosen to let go of my thoughts about them and the people that are involved in them. I am rebuilding those professional relationships and making my time where it was once a struggle to interact with others much better than it had been in an exceedingly long time.

While there has been some need to adapt to changes that have been brought forward over time, I am adapting better and those that are a part of that process are very understanding of that process and I am working at being less anxious about things that I have been anxious about in the past because of the ability to understand that things are going to be just fine if I do them in the way that I need to do them. In reality the fear that I often perceive is that of my own because of things that I have been told in the past, but things do change and there is more acceptance the world adapts, and this is lessening my intrusive thoughts as a result of having the constant reassurance that I so desperately desire.

In the end, I am hopeful that the thoughts that I experience will lessen over time as I continue to feel more confident about myself in the endeavors that I must endure in the day to day as I continue to understand that thoughts are a part of a process and I can manage them properly if I choose to.