In life, there are days where things do not always go according to plan. You sleep too much, have a meltdown, and so forth. As the day passes, it can be easy to want to get on the bad path that you have been doing so good to be on the good path, but no matter how the day is, it is important to remember that you work at ending the day on a good note…no matter how it may seem.

Over the course of the past few years when I have not always been my best self because of manipulation with my medication regimen, once I had started back on track, it could be easy to get back to ways that I should not have gone. There is certainly the constant temptation to go back to the ways that I once was, but often remind myself that I am so much more dependable and better when I adhere to my medication regimen.

I can think that there nothing that I can do to end the day on a good note because my day has been ruined by one thing or another, that there can be nothing good that will come out of the remainder to the day before it is time to take the evening medication and go to bed.

The reality is that when I know that by not taking my medication, I am not honoring the promise that I have made to so many that indeed I am taking care of myself by working to be my best self. I know that going down a negative path will only set me up for failure, even as much as I think in the current moment that I can get away with things because of feeling euphoric in my own state. The reality is there are many reasons for caring for myself in the way that I need to and no matter how much I have not done in the day from not being able to be productive, it is important that I work my best to find a way to make the best of the day.

It can seem like I am being punished for having to take medication that helps me sleep, but it is important to not only sleep, but also have my mood be able to be regulated to the best of its ability. It can take the simplest of things to have things be dysregulated and negative reactions arise that could not end up in a good result. I know that there are things that I must do to be well, and medication is one of those things that are simple yet helps in that process.

Feelings of seeming childish that I must take a pill to sleep after not doing anything to bring the energy that I desire seems in a way that I am being punished for nothing, but I must take advantage of the time that I have left in the day and work to make the best that I can of it to try not to make things more negative than what they already are and continue to find the positive reasons for why I need to care for myself.

In the end, it is important to make the best of each day and find a way to see something good in it, no matter how negative it was or how bad it was. There is always a reason for living and doing the right thing so I can make it to tomorrow in a well state because that is what others are depending me to do.