Something that has been on my mind lately is how much I embrace my struggles without doing the due diligence I need to do sometimes by asking for support and help when I need to have it. It can be hard to admit when I am struggling, but in all honesty, I just do what I need to do because that is all I know to do. But I have accepted that I need to access supports when it is available so I can work out situations for the better.

With everything going on in my life, it has taken some time for me to understand that I like many others struggle with the challenges I have in my life. I have finally understood that I need to stop hiding them like they are the elephant in the room and address them. It can be so relieving when I do that it gets me in a better place mentally and physically to the point, I can enjoy life for once without living in the doom of a negative mindset.

Just knowing that I have such a great support system, but not wanting to be honest about my struggles is one of the biggest things that has held me back for the past six years. Now that many of the catalysts behind my struggles are also gone and while there has been some change, it is easier to embrace that I have been able to talk about the feelings that I am experiencing with those behind the change and realize that things are much more relaxed not only for me, but for all those who are involved in the changes.

Knowing that I can be honest about what I am experiencing is a big help for me because there has been so much, I have been wanting to hide as if I do not struggle with my autism and other challenges. There is only so much that medication and therapy can do. It can be doing what is assigned to me in the therapy along with doing what I need to do to be  well. If there is a plan put together, then what good is it if I do not follow what I have created in that plan?

I honestly have to say that the last year has absolutely been a whirlwind of changes for me, and while I have followed through with them, I have not let go of what was, even though it was holding me back from accepting that the way things are now are in place for some time. I am doing well amid some pretty big changes and as hard as it was to be willing to let go of what was, it was also learning that my feelings about the past was what was holding me back and until I was able to share those feelings with those that were behind the changes, I had not felt as relieved as I was.

I now know that it is perfectly acceptable to embrace everything that I struggle with but also do what I need to do to avoid the situation from appearing back into the picture again. The feelings I had are dissipating gradually, but in the end, it is staying strong and continuing to do what is right for me.

Life is too short to be petty over the things I cannot change, so it is time to embrace the struggles I face and be more honest about when I need to speak to someone about the things that are bothering me, or I will never feel relieved of the situation.