Over the past year or so there have been so many changes and I have handled them very well, but from time to time I become frustrated about them and the rationale behind them. In those moments when things do not go as planned or when my anxiety is more elevated when unexpected changes take place, I want to avoid the current situation because my anxiety tends to elevate itself, but I also want to learn to accept what is.

Change is never easy for autistic individuals. It can also be difficult when there are emotions involved in the way things were. Part of my brain wants to hold on to the way things were and think that things will always be the way that they are going to be. While I am open to change, when things within that change become frustrating or unwanted, it can be more challenging to accept things for what they are.

It is not like I cannot see the fact that things are better than they were in the past. My brain wants to hold on to the past thinking resentful and vindictive thoughts about the way things were without just learning to accept how things are now and ignoring the past. I hold things in my brain that need to be let gone and as hard as it can be to believe that if things were to stay the way they were, they would have had a history of being the same challenging ways they have been for years.

Being able to see that things are better the way that things are now and starting to let go of the ways of the past should be a relieving way of thinking. Yes, there are going to be things about the change that are going to frustrate me from time to time, but I must work to learn that they are small in nature compared to the big picture in the past and even though I want to hold on to the past because it has been something that for decades I could always count on, I must realize that it is no more than a memory and that even though what I experience now can be slightly different and frustrating, it is in no way the stressful situations that I have experienced in the past.

It can be hard to accept the things that I no longer have control over or think that I can have happen the way that I want to. But, the reality is that nothing bad has happened as of yet and I need to continue to be grateful for that because even though I make my frustrations out to be worse than what they are because my brain is overreacting, the reality is that there was never a time that nothing severe has happened and for that reason I need to be grateful and not give into what my thoughts tell me about avoiding what my brain thinks I need to avoid.

I must realize that I must focus on why I am doing what I am doing and put my personal needs at the forefront and realize that I must not live in the past or make what I must experience a negative situation. I need to be grateful for the opportunities that I have and keep fighting through the bouts of negativity that appear in my brain and accept what is .