Today, was really a joy for me.

One of the best things was ending work to learn that a bus was “staging” waiting for pickup outiside my workplace before the quoted time for pickup.

I had the instinct to go ask who they were there for.

When they said my address, I was delighted.

I was even more delighted when I found out that I would be going straight home.

This isn’t always guaranteed to happen with paratransit, but it was the blessing that I was hoping to happen.

As much as I think about all the negativity that I want to believe that is in my life, I am slowly learning to look for more of the blessings and things to be grateful in my life.

Being able to write neatly and address stationary.

Cutting paper with scissors in a straight line (something that has been a struggle since childhood.)

Cooking dinner and cleaning the apartment after a day at work. (this has been a long struggle)

It is seeing more and more that I need to refocus my brain elsewhere than the things that I cannot control. I need to put them to rest.

I still experience anxiety, I am just more determined to work at better coping with it instead of letting my thoughts hold me captive.

I know that I have so much to be grateful and blessed for and that the things I worry about are not even worth worrying about.

It is learning that there are things that are not always my fault or can be helped, but having the emotional intellegence and understanding of the entire situation can aid in making sound and appropriate responses.

So, I work on finding the joy, blessings and gratitude in my life, setting boundaries and letting go of the things that I cannot control.

Rather, thinking about the things I can do to make the situations I must endure more pleasant and moving forward with my life.

I am so worth it!