From time to time, I will experience a great sense of anxiety when it comes to doing something. It is not all the time, but when it comes to making the transition to wanting to do it, the sense of wanting to avoid it can be strong due to my anxiety driving a great deal of fear about the situation, even though I know that I will be just fine, my brain will find any reason to get out of something because it senses fear and will want to avoid doing what is necessary because it makes me scared of what is expected to happen.

Although most of the time I do fight through fear and once I am on my way to my destination, I am fine. In those waiting moments, my brain will think of ways that I need to avoid a situation out of fear of something happening that is not going to go well. There have been many times over the past few years that I have given into these thoughts just because they have been too much for me. But when for a fact there is no known sense of danger to what my fears could be, then I know that there is no reason to worry about the perceived danger and I can carry on with my regularly scheduled activity.

 However, there are those times when I know when things are too much for me and in those instances, it is perfectly fine to take a step aside and do what I need to do to take care of myself. At that point it is important to have a day for self-care to work at relieving the stress that I am facing. But that does not mean that I just sit all day and let my thoughts get to me. I must take the initiative to work towards finding something that I enjoy doing for my mental benefit to take my mind away from fear.

In the end nowadays things that I do now have little or no sense of danger and as such it can be difficult to actually find the initiative to undertake the steps to avoid something because I know deep down that once I am on my way to my destination that I will be just fine, it is just in those waiting moments that my brain thinks of all the things that could go wrong in the process of the day and what impending sense of doom could be faced in the course of the day.

Deep down, I know that it is my brain overthinking all the possible scenarios that could go wrong because I have the inability at times to focus on the good things that could happen in the same course of the day or the event. I will have to say that it has gotten better at focusing on the good stuff, but when there are the days of the same old same old, it can be challenging to focus on things that are good because they are just not existent .

In the end, I know that what I am experiencing is just part of the anxiety that is a part of my personal makeup and once I get situated with things, I will be fine. It is fighting through those challenging moments knowing that I will be fine and not to give into avoiding the situation out of an exasperated sense of fear without fully evaluating the situation at hand and realizing how it will play out in the end. Most times it will be fine.