One of the things that I struggle with is getting myself into focus after doing something that gets me into a different state of mind. This could be after sleeping or napping or just anything that makes us want to transition from one thing to the next, but for me it is when I wake up after being asleep.

It can be hard for me to want to get into focus between switching gears out of a more relaxed situation and knowing that I do not want to have any missed time that I have available to me to do what I want to do, especially if it is later in the day. I become frustrated if I sleep for a long time, but I also know that it is important to recharge so that I am not cranky from being so active during the day.

There is the fact of what use it could be to get into focus especially after a considerable amount of time has passed since falling asleep why should I take the time to refocus. But, not doing so would make me angry because of all the time that would be wasted just in oversleeping when I could have been more productive or keeping engaged in something that I enjoy.

While I do understand that sleep is a necessity, it is still frustrating when a considerable amount of time has passed since I had just crashed out because of being overwhelmed from a day of doing so much. And I get the fact that when my body goes through a lot of stressful and challenging moments, but knowing that I sleep so much to recharge can be frustrating and then having to focus for the little bit of time that I have in the day can be frustrating, but then I think if I didn’t have some time to do something that I would enjoy, I would be more frustrated with myself that I wasted so much time just being overwhelmed.

The hardest moments is when the reality sinks in that when I must work on transitioning from one activity to the next and there is little time to just relax or when it is more difficult to make that transition and focus on what is needed to be done to get into the focus of the next activity. It just irritates me so much that it is so challenging to make the next move and at times I will just sit and stare into a blank space thinking about not only the next step but the next several steps and how hard they are going to be. It is not that they are going to be as hard as they seem to be, my brain just makes them that way.

However, in the end, it is important to remember that if I do not take care of myself, my body will force itself to make me do so. It can be hard to want to do the things that I need to do to get into the focus of doing what is slated to be the next thing that I need to do, but I know that once I do it, I will be fine.