In life there are things that you cannot control. For far too long, I have invested too much energy in some of the most trivial things that have taken a deep toll on my mental health to the point it can prevent me from doing things that I need to do. It has finally concluded that there is nothing that I can do about it, and I must instead focus on the things that I can control like how much I invest in something and how I react to what I must involve myself in.

Over the past few years, I have felt deeply involved in a lot of things that I have no business being involved in. That was because of past ways of management or that there was too much trust given without regard to my mental health. I have proven a few times that given too much of a load can subject me to becoming overwhelmed and because twice in the past year, I had not been able to adhere to my medication requirements, I crashed in burned in the forms of very unhealthy behavior.

While I have accepted the repercussions of not taking care of myself, I am grateful for the opportunity to have the things I need to be well and stay well. I know that if I were not in any other environment that this would not be possible. However, there are times when I see things with my eyes and my energy has me second guessing as if I need to focus on something being an issue for me, even if it is not. I choose to focus my energy on it, thinking I need to solve it as a way of providing comfort. But there needs to be the understanding that it would only either make it worse or its something in the grand scheme of things does not matter and I just need to let it go because I am reading too deeply into the issue.

I know my life would be so much better if I chose to focus on the things that I need to and disregard the things that I cannot control. There are also spontaneous things that happen that can be challenging to understand, or I may not understand that while I had experienced it, it is something that happens once in a while and I need to investigate further and let go of the feelings I have invested in before making decisions about how to react to a situation just on the basis that it happened to me.

It is accepting the need to go with what I have planned because it is what is set in place, and I must do what I can to not invest my energy in what I cannot control. Things are going to happen no matter what I do, and it is best to do what has been proven to work and not let the things that are bothersome bother me so much to the point that they deeply tug at my emotions.

By not investing my energy in the things that I cannot control and learning about the things that I can control by reacting properly while understanding that not everything in life is not a guarantee and that I must not invest my mind too much into the things that are challenging for me to digest, I can have a better quality of life. It is by not overthinking, life is not as bad as it seems.