Sometimes, it can be tough to face obstacles in life, but having a safety net of services and supports can provide a lifeline when things just do not seem right. There are times when I was not honest and straightforward with my intentions and as it has always been, it comes back to bite me. However, by having the services and supports that aid me when I am near the edge of not being well can be the saving grace to get me back on the right path.

There are times when those supports can be frustrating and it was getting to that point, but I was not forthcoming with those struggles, and I was not again honest with my medication regimen. In fact, most of the past six years that I have been living on my own, I have not been honest with my medication regimen and not adhering to it in the way that it needs to be adhered to. A few weeks ago, I realized that it is crucial to do so and manage the side effects as they come along.

I made a similar destructive decision last summer and it eventually resulted in a huge manic episode. And during this time, I was beginning to get manic; I was able to remedy things back in short order. I now fully understand the necessity of adhering to my medication regimen and taking care of myself the way that I need to. I also need to always know that through all of this that my supports have been in place I was ready to break away from them, now I realize that would have been consequential to do.

There are times when I get frustrated about the length of time that I have been in supports, but there is also the reality that it took me until recently to be able to do what I need to do. Now that I fully understand the necessity of following my medication regimen, I now recognize the need to set goals to focus on doing what I need to do to stay well and do what I need to do to ensure that I never go down that path ever again.

Being in the mind that I am in now seems like I am back to the person that I was six years ago before not caring for myself in the way that I needed to. I have had many negative instances and thankfully I did not receive any consequences because it was understood that I was not well. I also was never physically aggressive because I am fully aware of the type of consequences that are faced when that occurs.

Now that I have experienced what I have experienced over the past six years, it is time to finally make things right by doing what has been needed to be done to ensure that I do what is needed to ensure that I maintain a healthy well-being and care for myself in the way that I need to ensure that what I have experienced in the past never occurs again.

I know that I have the supports in place for a reason. It does not matter how long it takes, just that there is a desire to want to work on what needs to be done to ensure that I am able to live the life that I desire to have by being as well as possible.

Remember, there is no health without mental health.