As I like to say, it has been a minute.

Last week, I realized that I needed to slow things down a bit and get myself better grounded before making any serious decisions about my future.

This included wanting to leave my day program, or Clubhouse as it is known as.

What I did not realize was that I was not as well as I should be.

Someone brought it to my attention. That is when my real a-ha moment kicked in.

Before that I had slowly been putting the pieces together of what I needed to do to end the misery that I had been experiencing I was not sure how to start.

I wanted to say that it was divine intervention of a higher power.

It made me realize that no matter what I do that I know is wrong, eventually others catch on.

You are the writer of the story as you also have the power to be in control, but you must know when things are not right. When things get  out of control for so long, those who care about you will notice.

I immediately started to get back on track, realizing and accepting the dangers of what I have been doing that I should have never been doing the past six years.

Now, I am more aware of the warning signs and how to better manage my load.

But as I was doing before I started to get back on track, I am continuing to do that, but in a much better way.

Today, I received assurance that I can continue to experience the Clubhouse in the way that I need to and take a few months to decide what my future choice will be.

Sometimes, things happen too fast in life. It is important to take it slow and work on yourself fist and foremost, making yourself your priority.

Today, I began to do that, and was at more ease. I attended my state’s annual Clubhouse Conference, something that I have not done in years.

For the first time in 20 years, it changed venues, allowing my Clubhouse to commute to and from for a few days, making me wanting to go.

When I got there, I began to feel more at home. The Clubhouse is my home.

They, from other members and staff in my own Clubhouse to those of the Clubhouse community across the Commonwealth, Nation and World are in the same realm as me.

Being there today has rekindled my Clubhouse spirit.

It reminded me that if a Clubhouse is as good as it has been to me, then I know that they care very much about me and want me to be the best I can be.

Next month will mark two decades since I first walked in the doors as a member.

While I know right now, I need to lighten my load, I know that I can go there at any time and they are all very supportive of me and accept me for my authentic self and know me way better than even myself and that is something that you can’t find around the corner.

So, I am much more at ease than I have  been for many years and am on the right track.

And that is honesty, something that I know is always the best policy and that I can feel free with my tribe.

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