Over the weekend, I have battled cases of irrational, ruminative thoughts while trying to find the motivation to do things that needed to be done in my life. Being an untraditional weekend and not having somewhat of a normal routine did not help the situation. I personally know that I need to work better at this but there was a great inability to find the motivation to fully get moving and do what I needed to do to keep my mind out of scrolling on the phone or doing things that were detrimental to getting what needed to get done.

I personally know that I struggle with thoughts but not being able to find things to focus on was more of a struggle than anything else. There were plenty of things that I could have done, yet I just could not find the drive and stamina to do what I knew was best for my mental health and well-being. I do agree that the past week has been quite challenging for me and while I have recognized the need to take a break from the family situation and there were good bouts where I was indeed able to get things done, there were bouts where I couldn’t find that motivation to do what I know was helpful.

I know there was some great uncertainty about the family situation, and I am sure that it kicked up my thoughts, but it at times made it hard to settle down and focus my attention on things that are more beneficial than things that were not helpful to my mental well-being. As I start today, I know that I must do better and returning to somewhat of a normal routine will aid in making things better for me. However, I must do the work that is needed to keep occupied and the thoughts at bay so I do not fall into that negative pattern where things occur that are unhelpful for me, and the detrimental things happen that can make it harder to regroup and do what is needed or find the pleasantness that I need to have to be sure that my mental well-being is in check.

While there are things in my life that can pose issues that can be quite challenging to my thought process, it is important to remember that I am the only person that can control my well-being and I must the one that does the work to improve the state of mind that I currently am in. It can be challenging and difficult when the world is against you or when the day is not what you expect it to be because there are things that you cannot control, but what is more important is what you can control. These are like your actions and how you react to things that can be bothersome for you. It is always important to remember that even though you may react to something, the way that you present yourself is what matters. Even though your life may be challenging, it is important that you are the driver behind the way that you act, finding healthy ways to communicate and process your thoughts is key to being successful in mastering your mental well-being and keeping your emotions in check when it comes to being successful in life.